What Do I Do?

How do I get rid of
This continual pain?
The grief that sears through me,
The constant rain?

I should feel happiness
Joy and awe.
But I don't feel anything
Like that at all.

My smile doesn't reach
To the rest of my face
The hopes for tomorrow
Have now been erased.

What do I do?
How do I live
With all of this love
That I cannot give?

About the Author
My name is Nicki. My husband, Bryan, was hit by a drunk driver on March 27, 2013. He was life flighted to the hospital. The next day I was told there was no hope of him recovering from his injuries. I have lost my Dad and Grandfather, but nothing has ever come close to the pain that I feel since his accident. Every day became a struggle with no hope for relief from the pain. I started writing about Bryan and this new life without him and found some comfort and hope to give comfort to others.
I'm Grieving, Now What?